Hello everybody. I am back.

A while ago I announced that I won’t be blogging for months because I was focusing on a really important goal. After I announced that, I became absolutely miserable. I felt like crying every second and I was just not enjoying my life.

Now, don’t flatter yourself. It was not because I missed you guys terribly. Who am I kidding?? I missed you guys a lot. But something else was also going on. Something that we are going to talk about today.

See, when I started my journey. I did not only cut off blogging. I also cut out working out, social time, movie nights, reading and sleeping. Yes, sleeping.

After that, I… My mental health just went down the drain. At first I was okay but then I was having a mental breakdown every two seconds. Maybe I am exeggerating it wasn’t that bad.

But then I caught myself and asked myself why am I actively trying to make myself miserable. Who told me that I couldn’t live my life and go after my dreams?? That I have to put everything on hold for this dream??

Hustle culture. Hustle culture told me that. I do not subscribe to the notion of hustle culture. I am all for healthy productivity. For enjoying the journey to achieving your goals. To not putting your happiness on hold in hopes that you will be happy after accomplishing your goal. But for a minute there, I found myself believing them. That I had to sacrifice everything for this one goal because achieving it is somehow going to make up for lost time.

Now I am also all about going after what you want and working hard and being disciplined. The way to go about it shouldn’t feel like hell. And like make you want to die. Your mental health is more important than any goal.

Hustle culture is less about what you do and more about the mindset behind what you are doing. We could be doing the exact same things with a different mindset.

I could study for four hours everyday because I want to get good grades as to open opportunities for my future self should she want to further her studies or get into medicine or something.

While you could be studying because you want to grind and you want to best student in the world. Because you want everybody who said that you wouldn’t make it to eat their words. Because your self-worth is closely tired to your grades that failing would mean you are a failure and you’re good for nothing.

You’d only sleep so that you can energy to study while I would sleep because, I’m a human being.

Don’t worry. I have not come back being selfish and only talking about myself. We will talk about you soon. I just wanted to share my story. Maybe you can take something away from my story. Maybe you can judge me about the way I live my life. Maybe you can wonder why I’m telling you this in the first place.

Do what you will with this information. Thank you so much for being here. I love and appreciate you so much❤️❤️

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